Of all the things that I’ve been taught
The big one in which I’ve been caught
Is a habit that’s been really tough
It’s called “Carrying Around the Family Stuff!”

I was just a kid when you taught me to believe
That children should be seen but not be heard.
So I kept to myself and believed what you said,
Even though I thought it terribly absurd.

All girls should be sweet and boys shouldn’t cry,
So be a lady, be a big boy, be the best.
We need you to be good so you can make us proud,
But don’t try to be better than the rest.

Stuff, all this stuff!
Eating all your fears has made it rough.
Your insidious beliefs have caused me years of grief.
I’ve had enough, enough, enough – I’ve had enough!

Every family has its secrets, but please do not tell.
Keep your mouth shut, do not say what we have done.
What we do here in our house should never be revealed.
Now go outside and run around and have some fun.

We must go to church so God can see us there.
Put on a smile and make a pretty face.
Take the preacher’s hand and let him know you’re here
So the Lord can see you’re worthy of His grace.

Stuff, all this stuff!
Eating all your fears has made it rough.
Your insidious beliefs have caused me years of grief.
I’ve had enough, enough, enough – I’ve had enough!

You know that you are loved cuz we feed you every day.
The want for sentiment is unappealing.
You have a happy home with everything you need.
What’s all this nonsense about what you’re feeling?

Don’t give us any grief, don’t be a pickle puss.
You know that you’re not pretty when you pout.
So pick your chin up off the ground, find something else to do
Or we’ll give you something you can cry about.

Stuff, all this stuff!
Eating all your fears has made it rough.
Your insidious beliefs have caused me years of grief.
I’ve had enough, enough, enough – I’ve had enough!
Now I realize I’ve spouted off about my family traits
And I want to add that they all did their best.
But I know I’m sick and tired of all this Stuffin’ It.
I just need to get these feelings off my chest.

Stuff, all this stuff!
Eating all your fears has made it rough.
Your insidious beliefs have caused me years of grief.
I’ve had enough, enough, enough – I’ve had enough!
Enough, enough, enough–ENOUGH!

The earth is your academy, your classroom, your homeroom.
You don’t come here just knowing things right out of the womb.
Before you come you have a list of things you want to learn
So you choose the folks to help you best, although they might be stern.

There are many things that happen you will never understand.
And that is why you need to find the very perfect clan.
And though you might not see the point in everything they do
In the scheme of greater learning, they are doing the best for you.

You have a choice, before you come, to be awake or just stay numb.
And it is always up to you to find exactly what to do.
And though your life may hit you hard, or tumble like a house of cards,
You can choose who you will be and let your choices set you free.

Everyone comes into life with goals to spread their wings
Some will end up paupers and some will soon be kings.
But it really doesn’t matter the path you choose to take
It’s how you learn your lessons that will help you to awake.

So I ask you now: how do you choose to go about your days?
Is it worth the anger and the blame to stay inside your haze?
Or do you wish to free them all from carrying your fate
And find the life you wish to live before it is too late?

You have a choice, before you come, to be awake or just stay numb.
And it is always up to you to find exactly what to do.
And though your life may hit you hard, or tumble like a house of cards,
You can choose who you will be and let your choices set you free. (x2)

Diane:
I got my marching orders
Live inside my safety borders
I like what my life has become.
There is no need for thinking
So what if my hopes are sinking
It’s easy to accept if I keep myself numb.

Laura:
My angel heart hurts to see you live in apathy.
You’re living in a dream.
Life is not meant to be lived so passively.
It’s time now to wake up and find out who you are.

Diane:
You don’t seem to understand
I’ve done everything I planned.
This is a life of expectations
There’s no other explanation.
I’ve done what has been required.
This is how you are admired.
You do what others want of you.
That’s how you live your whole life through.

Laura (overlapping):
But are you happy doing this?
Where’s your passion, where’s your bliss?
It’s a very toxic pill
To live through someone else’s will.
May I make a small suggestion?
I think that it’s time to question
Whether you are happy here
Before your spirit disappears.

Diane:
I got my marching orders
Live inside my safety borders
I like what my life has become.
There is no need for thinking
So what if my hopes are sinking
It’s easy to accept if I keep myself numb.

Laura:
My angel heart hurts to see you live in apathy.
You’re living in a dream.
Life is not meant to be lived so passively.
It’s time now to wake up and find out who you are.

Diane:
Everything is all in line
What’s mine is yours, what’s yours is mine.
This is how it’s s’posed to be
To live your life selflessly.
I think that I heard somewhere
That life isn’t always fair.
So just march on and keep the beat
All things in order, nice and neat.

Laura (overlapping):
I don’t think that I’m getting through
Just how much your life means to you.
You’ve done the basics, learned the ropes,
But what about your dreams and hopes?
Please look inside and feel the space
That’s only there for your embrace.
Excitement and intensity
For who you’re truly meant to be.

Laura:
Marching, always marching
So you won’t betray
All the rules and orders
Wanting to obey.
That’s where all the love is
Or so you conceive.
Tied to your acceptance
So that they don’t leave.

Diane and Laura:
La la la la, la la la-la la la
La la la la, la la-la la la
La la la la, la la la-la la la
La la la-la la la
La la la-la la la
La la la-la la la la . . . la la!

Diane:
Yesterday was familiar; it held me in its hands.
But it said, “You cannot stay here; you’re on shifting sands.”
Tomorrow offers memories of who I was before
But today is never ending – it tells me, “Search for more.”
Where is the life I once had that I had counted on?
It seems that in a moment, all promises were gone.
And now I’m left to wonder where I am going to
Where are all the answers, oh, what am I to do?

Diane:
What once was up is upside down, I haven’t found the solid ground.
I always thought the sky was blue but now I wonder if that’s true
I’m so confused, my head is dull, a pressure here inside my skull.
I just want to go to sleep, and ask the Lord my soul to keep.

Laura:
The Universe is steady and, though it might sound strange,
The truth is that your soul is asking you to change.
No one can do this for you or know what you should do.
The key is in your soul and your light will guide you through.

Diane:
What once was up is upside down, I haven’t found the solid ground.
I always thought the sky was blue but now I wonder if that’s true
I’m so confused, my head is dull, a pressure here inside my skull.
I just want to go to sleep, and ask the Lord my soul to keep.

Laura:
Please know that I am with you, you’ll never be alone.
You’ll walk into the mysteries of things you haven’t known.
I’m here to hold and guide you and help you on your way.
Now close your eyes and listen to what your heart has to say.

Ann and Laura (x2):
Can’t you hear it? It’s right here.
All your answers will appear.
Sit very still and trust your heart
This process is a work of art.

Diane:
I always thought, to be accepted
I had to do what was expected.
Go to school or get a trade
With lots of money to be made.
You need to have security
No matter what you want to be.
My life was safe, I stayed in line.
But my heart knew this wasn’t mine.

Diane:
I wanted to be a singer or a writer or a sage.
I wanted to be a playwright, have my work up on the stage.
But they told me I was just a dreamer, get your head out of the sky.
Be down to earth, be practical – you live, you work, you die.

Laura:
But now you know that isn’t true.
You can do what you want to do.
You have a talent and you must use it.
It isn’t right if you refuse it.
What’s in your heart is who you are;
Imagination is your star.
Your angel’s giving you the sign.
The world is waiting for you to shine.

Diane:
To be totally honest, angel, I’m really on the fence.
To do the things I truly love, I need more confidence.
What if I’m not good enough or fail to make it go?
I really do not want to hear them say “I told you so!”

Laura:
It takes courage to do what must be done
It takes courage to beat a different drum.
So dare to dream and say a prayer
For fearlessness to get you there.

Diane:
You know, it’s true, dear angel, fear has been my camouflage.
All my life I’ve hidden behind a wall of sabotage.
But I can feel within my soul it’s time to stop my whining
And let the light that sparks my life begin to come out shining.

Laura:
‘Cause now you know that it is true:
You can do what you want to do.
You have a talent and you must use it.
It isn’t right if you refuse it.
What’s in your heart is who you are;
Imagination is your star.
Your angel’s giving you the sign.
The world is waiting for you to shine.

Diane:
My angel’s giving me the sign.
The world is waiting for me to shine.

The past is in the past and it is true
That I can still go back to take a view.
But I don’t have to live there anymore
This feeling’s just too great to be ignored:

I am moving forward and I’m not going back.
I don’t know where I’m headed but I’m on the right track.
The only one who has to believe it is me
And I’m going to make my dreams an actuality.

With an awakened mind it is easier to find
Who’s living in this body and to outgrow
All the things I thought I was
Simply just because
I believed what someone told me long ago.

I have choices every day to help me find a way
To know the person I am meant to be
So with appreciation I am a new creation—
I’ve opened up my eyes to being me.

Gratitude to those who taught me what I need to be strong
With understanding and forgiveness no one has to be wrong.
My unconscious now awakened I can see through the trees
No longer lost in the forest I can do what I please.

With an awakened mind it is easier to find
Who’s living in this body and to outgrow
All the things I thought I was
Simply just because
I believed what someone told me long ago.

I have choices every day to help me find a way
To know the person I am meant to be
So with appreciation I am a new creation—
I’ve opened up my eyes to being me.

There is strength in recognition of the past.
It’s up to me to learn and then to grow.
With my experience with you,
I know that I can make it through—
So it’s time for me to move on and let go.

I have choices every day to help me find a way
To know the person I am meant to be
So with appreciation I am a new creation—
I’ve opened up my eyes to being me.
I’ve opened up my eyes to being me.

Laura:
Look to your spirit and let it lead the way
To the hopes and the wishes you dream of every day.
Just hear the whispers that are living in your soul.
Gently surrender to where your heart wants to go.

Laura and Ann:
Look to your spirit and let it lead the way
To the hopes and the wishes you dream of every day.
Just hear the whispers that are living in your soul.
Gently surrender to where your heart wants to go

Diane:
I surrender, O Spirit, my weaknesses and shame.
I surrender, O Spirit, those I’ve hurt and those I blame.
I surrender, O Spirit, my willingness to hide.
I surrender my will so that you can be my guide.
I surrender, O Spirit, my need to run away.
I surrender, O Spirit, mistakes I made today.
I surrender, O Spirit, my unworthiness
And give you, O Spirit, the gifts that I possess.

Laura and Ann:
Look to your spirit and let it lead the way
To the hopes and the wishes you dream of every day.
Just hear the whispers that are living in your soul.
Gently surrender to where your heart wants to go.

Diane:
My vow to you is this:
To find a life of bliss.
My heart unlocks the key
Of surrendering to me.

Diane:
I release to you, O Spirit, the lies that I have spun.
I release to you, O Spirit, all guilt for what I’ve done.
I surrender, O Spirit, my invisibility.
I surrender, O Spirit, to who I want to be.
I surrender, O Spirit, my worry and my doubt
And ask that you lead me so I can bring about
The gifts and the talents that you have shown to me,
And live my life in service with great humility.

All (x2):
Look to your spirit and let it lead the way
To the hopes and the wishes you dream of every day.
Just hear the whispers that are living in your soul.
Gently surrender to where your heart wants to go.

Laura:
It’s time to jump before you chicken out
So jump right off, find out what your life’s about.
Do you really love it that you’re stuck upon the floor?
Or is it time to jump and see what you’ve been waiting for?
It’s time to jump, it’s time to find your wings
So jump right off to a world of better things.
You’re fearless and courageous, it’s time to take the dive
Won’t it be exciting to be totally alive?

Diane:
I don’t know if this is such a good idea
It might be time to pray Ave Maria.
A-ve Maria . . .
That cliff is pretty steep – oh heck, I don’t give a bleep!
Here I go! I’m jumping! Mamma Mia!!

Diane:
I’m going to jump, I’m going to take the leap.
I’ll jump right off and I don’t give a bleep
What anybody thinks about what I am going to do
This life is mine to live and I’ve got to see it through.
I’m going to jump and hope my angel helps me fly.
I’ll jump right off and know that I’m not going to die.
Maybe I will grow some wings and soar among the clouds
Doing something freeing that I never would allow.

Diane:
I don’t know if this is such a good idea
It might be time to pray Ave Maria.
A-ve Maria . . .
That cliff is pretty steep – oh heck, I don’t give a bleep!
Here I go! I’m jumping! Mamma Mia!!

Diane:
I’m going to jump, I am going to take a chance.
I’ll jump right off and allow my heart to dance.
There’s nothing that can stop me now, I’m willing and I’m free
To live the life I want to live and who I want to be.
I’m going to jump and hope that it’s not going to hurt.
And when I land, hope I’m not in a pile of dirt.
But if I am I’ll pick me up and brush the dirt away
Then I’ll shout up to the heavens and this is what I’ll say:

Diane and Angels:
I JUMPED (She jumped!) – I JUMPED! (She jumped!)
And I’m not scared because I’m pumped! (She’s pumped!)
There is nothing to fear – HEY! – I’m still here!
And I jumped, I jumped, I jumped, I jumped!! (She jumped!)

The mind, noisy, grasping and busy
Seeking answers and searching for purpose
Feeling lost and alone . . . wondering, wand’ring, directionless

Come home, come home to your heart
Your sacred vault of truth, your sacred vault of truth
Come home, come home to your heart
Be curious, awaken, love
Be curious awaken, love

Groping in the darkness, waiting for a glimmer of light,
Then a whisper, a whisper to come home.
Breathing. Scared. Unsure.

Come home, come home to your heart
Your sacred vault of truth, your sacred vault of truth
Come home, come home to your heart
Be curious, awaken, love
Be curious awaken, love

The whisper returns, quietly nudging to be heard.

Come home, come home to your heart
Your sacred vault of truth, your sacred vault of truth
Come home, come home to your heart
Be curious, awaken, love
Be curious awaken, love

Diane:
When I was very young I would look up at the sky.
I didn’t feel at home here but I couldn’t figure why.
So all my life I tried to fit but couldn’t find my way
Until one night I had a dream and heard my angels say:

Laura and Ann:
You are the rock, you are the tree
You are the light that shines in me.
You are the water, you are the sky
And now it’s time for you to fly.
You belong in this world
And you must find your way.
To feel mag-ni-fi-cent
Each and every day.

You are the moon, you are the sun
And you have only just begun
You are the grass, you are the rain
You are a beautiful refrain.
The world is waiting for you
To give it your consent
And declare to us now
That you are mag-ni-fi-cent!

Diane:
My life now feels so different, I can laugh and I can smile.
I have given me permission to live with my own style.
I don’t have to be who I am not, in fact it’s not a choice
I found my heart, I found my soul, and I have found my voice.

All:
You are the rock, you are the tree
You are the light that shines in me.
You are the water, you are the sky
And now it’s time for you to fly.
You belong in this world
And you must find your way.
To feel mag-ni-fi-cent
Each and every day.

You are the moon, you are the sun
And you have only just begun
You are the grass, you are the rain
You are a beautiful refrain.
The world is waiting for you
To give it your consent
And declare to us now
That you are mag-ni-fi-cent!

Magnificent, magnificent, magnificent, magnificent!

Who would I be if I were really me?
Would I pick things that I like from everyone?
Would I look around the corner and see what I find there
Or would it be the same thing that I find everywhere?
Who would I be if I were really me?
Is it one thing, is it two or is it four?
If I pick myself apart, could I really find my heart.
Or is my body just a great big metaphor?

Who would I be if I were really me?
Would I enjoy the person I’ve become?
Would I think that I am witty and giggle at my jokes,
Or would I be annoying and bother other folks?
Who would I be if I were really me?
Do you think that you would like me as before?
If I truly showed my face, would I still deserve my place
Or would the Universe just kick me out the door?

I do like introspection and inner core reflection,
I want to be a person who is real.
So I need some direction to find my imperfection
And then I’ll know exactly how I feel.

Who would I be if I were really me?
If I willingly allow myself to find
The goodness and compassion I always thought I had
Or would I forget the good stuff and just contemplate the bad?
Who would I be if I were really me?
Is it necessary to inspect the past?
Or can I just allow that I am who I am now
And let that be okay? So glad I asked!